Have you ever noticed how life often seems to throw a punch at you when you least expect it? I can’t help but wonder when it’s going to come next, sometimes. I mean, things are going so well, I’ve learned to almost expect those “moments”. Moments that make you remember that life is about reality not a fairy tale. I don’t question those moments…I know God brings them my way for a purpose. For me to learn something. BUT
There’s always a BUT. But why does it sometimes feel like I can’t handle this one. I know I’ll get through it and I know God has it under control. But I wonder why people have to misunderstand things. Why do they not come to you and tell you when they have a problem with you? Why do people gossip? Why are there interpersonal relationship problems that cause these “life moments?”
I am a peacemaker at heart. So when I hear something I want to fix it. Especially if it concerns me. So when I hear something that I can’t fix I worry. And yet, I know that worry is a sin. But, I can’t sleep, I binge eat, I can’t concentrate on any of the things I enjoy. Simply because someone is upset with me. And it’s not even my fault! But these “life moments”…and they tend to happen a lot with me…actually do teach me things. Things about myself…about how I handle problems. It’s actually rather fascinating if you stop and watch yourself go through one of these moments. I do struggle with trusting God. I know that. I need to work on it more…and maybe that’s what “life moments” are all about. Growing closer to God and developing a more sure relationship with Him.